it's just so amazing how some people can change so much for the better, and how amazingly disgusting some people can degenerate and degrade themselves so much and change for the worst.

take for example *. 1 or 2 years ago when i knew him he was so different from now. a rising leader in church has now become.. i can't even find the words to describe it. i'm just thoroughly disgusted by his actions, thinking and behaviour.

God said "love your neighbour as yourself" but it's really so darn tough to love someone as unlovable as he is. and he's not the only one i find hard to love. i just pray that one day i will be able to follow the scriptures and really love everyone around me. i think it will make my life an easier and better one. :)

my maid is back from the philippines. haha finally things are gonna go back to normal. i hope. but then again, i realised that mopping the floor actually quite fun eh. heh heh.

oh and she bought dunkin' donuts back too!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

my mantra for the rest of the year.

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hopefully by the end of the year, that will shut my mother up. heh.

fats free life, here i come!

it's 2 in the morning now and i'm superly tired from the past 4days of insufficient slp and too much brainpower being used. what with all the school and tests and studying and worship prac and workshop and service.....




















BUT. i just want to say this.















OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD. whether you believe me or not, He is.

He's the only one who reigns this whole earth from heaven above.
He's the only one who can have wisdom, power and love all at the same time.
He's the one who brought me through this hectic period of time, granting me wisdom and strength. by His grace, i played drums for service today for the first time ever. by His Holy Spirit, i was able to help bring the congregation into worship. by His holiness, the worship was good.

our God is an awesome God.

trust me on this. ;)

i spent vday shopping by myself.

which wasn't such a bad experience, really. kinda fun shopping by yourself. can buy anything you want without consulting your friends. you know we tend to ask our friends "is this nice?" when we go shopping together. don't know why but sometimes i'll feel a bit stressed haha. feels like cannot anyhow ask anything you see. like must live up to some expectations like that. rubbishy. heh.

well, something kinda made me a bit pissed off today. i was supposed to make some flowers deliveries in school for those who ordered as a cupid or something like that. i had no classes today, so my main purpose of going down to school was to do this. but i was barely 15mins on the bus before i found out that the deliveries were all made. and it wasn't from the person who told me to do the deliveries. imagine if i went down all the way to school (which is like a freaking 1hr+) and found out that heyho! there's nothing for me to do actually, how wasted all that time would be? and i have 2 tests coming up on thurs and fri. don't you think the person in charge should have some sort of responsibility to let me know that all the deliveries are done so that i don't have to go down?

on hindsight, maybe she isn't entirely at fault cos i doubt she knows that i have no classes in school today. but then again.. oh well. i got over it anyway. (: retail therapy helps.

saga seeds will always have a special meaning to me. thank you :)

in times like this, the one person that comes to mind is you.

and it has always been you.

humans can be so ugly. no matter how hard they try to hide it, these things will all get exposed one day. please learn and try how to be a better person, including myself. maybe the world will be a better place.

world peace! lol.

i think i was actually SLIM 2yrs ago. unbelievable, but true. wait till i show you the photos. argh. irritating la. i want to be slim again!

today's my ah gong's birthday! didn't even know till this morning.. oops. will be expecting a herd of relatives coming over later. think i shall be aneroxic today haha. the food in china was so oily! being totally random now. i want to put braces, waddya think?

sucker. i dislike being kept in anticipation and suspense. but i think sometimes i'm the one building the suspense up myself haha. should learn how to have no expectations, which in turn will lead to less disappointment. learn, gina! this is not the first time anymore.

and i really dislike the way you're treating me. in your eyes it may seem like the right thing to do. but are you sure that's how a friend is like? to make me feel like i'm doing something wrong when i don't really have much of a choice? why can't you just talk to me in a nicer way? you're different from when i first knew you years back.

maybe you're right. maybe i'm the one who's wrong all along. and maybe i've just been pushing you aside. but when i started accepting you back into my life, it just doesn't feel the same anymore.

maybe it's just me.

a whooping 352 pictures await for viewing! thats really alot la. haha

i think i like the weirdest people sometimes.

i'm weird. owells. but still, i like! hahaaa ;)

yeeee haaaaaa. ima back :)

china was unexpectedly great. i kinda miss it already! lol. hope you guys had a good cny. i totally missed out on lots of angbao collecting opportunities and catchup sessions! but china kinda made up for it i guess. a bit. haha.

tired. gonna zzzz. photos soon! thousand and one i warn you. haha.

nigggghhttttssssss