note to all readers who actually read my blog. if u feel disgusted or unhappy with what you see, there's one way out for you. click the little cross at the top right hand corner. yeah man. tat will stop your torture.

so anyway, whats with all the anonymous critical/hate tags that losers always like to leave on pple's blogs? if you have something to say, leave your name and say it. no point using names like 'passerby' or whatever it is that you like to use.

you people DO realise that such hateful tags actually hurt pple's feelings?

somethg tat deserves celebration: chomp chomp has reopened! whoopee. its such a great place for yummy stingrays, succulent grilled chicken wings, piping hot satays, and of course the super LARGE jug of sugar cane juice. went there for supper with my parents few nights back. it basically looks the same save for the tables and chairs which are now all fixed and stuck to the ground which makes it not very convenient for large grps of pple. but nonetheless, its still a very great place for bonding, laughter and of course the glorious glorious food.

the atmosphere there was really nice when i went. grps of frens sitting together, laughing at their own private jokes which i so missed frm last time. saw pple in their jc uniforms, and suddenly felt nostalgic. haha im so dumb.

oh and my parents were like totally disgusting lor, esp my dad. as my dad supplied pork to quite a few stall holders there, he knows like almost everybody there. when we were leaving, he was practically shouting bye to his frens and everyone was like staring at us. arghhh. and my dad actually fed my mum food!! can u believe tat? i thought im the only one who does it with youqian but apparently im wrong. haha but its kind of sweet lar. just in a disgusting way. heh.

oh den when we were walking back to the car we passed by this table full of businessmen eating and drinking beer. when we walked past, i happened to see this guy nudge the guy next to him and looking in the direction of my parents who were in front of me. i was like thinking they must be staring at my dad cos he looks like ah liang. BUT!!!! after 1 second, i realised tat they were staring at my MUM. if my dad wasnt there, i can bet with u 10 bucks tat they would've whistled or make some disgusting horny noises which only men are capable of making.

do i sound jealous? im not okay. haha. just bitter. why can't i look more like my mum instead of my dad? ohhhh welllls.

s c r e a m.

thats wad i wanna do. i feel like standing up onto a really tall chair, scream at the top of my lungs, shouting to all the unis out there this one question: 'why haven't i received any letters??!?!?!?!?!!??!'

yeah. tat shd make me feel better. at least, it will take away some of the angst i feel inside.

shit.

whoopee! had loads of fun last sat. was too lazy to blog abt it den. so shall now. ya noe? haha.

went shopping! with fel and yam. bought one tonne of things. so like half my pay's gone. desperately pathetically waiting for the next payday now. wanna buy a new pair of shoes and a new bag!

ohh. celebrated xuanyu's bday at junjie's house again. his house is like the odac entertainment centre. u know. except tat its more like a gambling den cos we only play mahjong there. haha. oh oh! i tell u. i learnt how to play mahjong!! addicted man. haha i won 5 rounds in a row! if only the money was reeeeaaal.

on sun, stayed home the whole day. met ah shuai for dinner at night at heartland mall pizza hut. yum. had the seafood lasagne and sausage mania and calamari! oh and they forgot to charge us for the calamari so its free! hah shd go back there again. was so happy with him tat night. he made me smile so much. haha he's wonderful!

mon tues wed work work work work work. im gonna work till i drop. and oh i filled 3 temps yday! haha like wad fel says, yes blow balloons pop the champagne and celebrate. well but today was ZERO again. heh hope tmr peak again.

going to the gym tmr.

night peeps.

you know, sometimes things can get SO screwed up.
but that's life.
u just gotta learn to cope and go though it with a smile.

did i mention tat i love my mum?
yea i do. and i gave her money today! cos its payday.
yea finally. was like broke for the past weeks.
almost had to resort to digging my ang bao money up to tide me through.

do u know how expensive food and public transport are?
oh and i filled ZERO temps today. lousy lar. what to do. lousy consultant. lousy candidates. lousy interviews.

its amazing how small Singapore really is. met a long-lost fren at RE today. she happens to be dot's candidate. and happens to be my pl classmate! she's like so skinny now. lost 5 kg can. i also want! im gonna lose 10kg man. oh yea which reminds me. i actually dragged my arse to the gym with dot on mon. though we actually spend the better part of the time trying to locate the hougang gym. haha but was fun. talked alot on the way there. found out many things i didn't know. realised many things which i didn't know too.

seriously, if u told me last yr tat i was gonna go to the gym together with dorothy to work out, i would've said tat u're nuts. but im happy with the way things are now. its true tat bonding can only be done with the company of one another. no way can u bond by just forwarding smses and saying things like "we're so gonna meet up one day!" cos u never do. im not saying tat forwarding smses are bad. just tat they don't really aid in bonding. get my point? doesn't matter if u don't. cos im actually one of those pple who says things like the above but never takes the initiative.

i haven't got a single reply frm any unis yet. can just kiss my uni education goodbye man.

sorry if this post's a bit jumbled up and has no sense of direction. they're just my random thoughts over the past few days.

can u believe im going back to the office tmr? when my job's supposed to be a 5-days work wk. well. elaine better be nice to us. haha. i mean, nicer.

night all.

SIGH.

i miss my babyyyyy.

watched passion of the christ today. cried like a cow thoughout the whole movie. what did we do to deserve His love for us? we are so unworthy of it.

well. managed to get loads of pple to watch the show today. junming junjie fel nigel jianwei marvin sherry dot yvonne euwin ziqiang jiajing zhiyong. really hope tat the non-believers are touched in one way or another. wellllll.

after the show, headed over to junjie's house for a game of mahjong. which is actually a disguise for zhiyong & ziqiang's surprise bday party. haha end up those who were playing mahjong din't really give a damn bout the 2 bday boys. haha just sang a bday song and went back to their game. these addicts i tell u.. heartless creatures!

dot started learning mahjong today and boy did she have one tonne of beginner's luck. kept winning every single round. and she'll never fail to do a victory dance which is so ugly its cringe-worthy. haha classic dot. crazy.

headed over to this coffeeshop near junjie's house to have dinner. didn't eat much. no appetite. just koped their food. heh.

well. eyes hurt. frm crying too much today. throat hurts. not totally recovered yet. and losing my voice too. and yes i lost my bus pass. yippee. im gonna either find an ez-link card with $70 value or get my bus pass back. for the lord is good! amen!


check out the pretty babes.

a poem he wrote for me last yr..

im no angel, with no halo on the top
i cant be with u all ard the clock
i've no riches, i've no fame
its just such a shame
im mere mortal, im not powerful
i cant get u the moon if u asked me to
im no genie, i grant no wish
i can only promise u this
i may not be with u all the time
but u will always be on my mind
i cant shower with u with presents & gifts
but i can replace them with hugs & kiss's
i cant do everything u ask me to
but i'll try my best, i promise u
im no poet, my words barely rhyme
i just wanted to tell u whats on my mind
for i love u with all my heart
and i pray we'll never ever part.

its thursday. supposed to be at work. but yet im at home now.
why?
yes. im sick. like fever, sore throat, body aches. u know, the usual.

was feeling really terrible yday. after work, couldn't wait to get home and rest. however, when i was in the train, started feeling very very unwell. felt like puking. wished so much for the damned train to go 10times faster so i could get home sooon.

well, as it turns out, when i've FINALLY reached my stop (seems like 10yrs to me), started feeling very giddy, literally felt like fainting. i know i always said tat i feel like fainting but this time its true!! its actually my very first time of experiencing tis kind of wanna-faint feeeling.

so, while i staggered unsteadily to the mrt station exit (pple must have thought i was a drunkard or somethg), i called my mum. at the same time, i was asking God to help me and let me not faint on the streets but get home safely. miraculously, while i was talking to my mum on the phone, the feeling of dizziness passed me by and i actually managed to walk properly to a waiting cab outside. got home safely in the end.

parents were worried bout me. even my dad. he showed concern for me and even gave me $50 allowance when he's stopped giving me allowance since after A levels. haha but that's not the point. the point is i really felt loved last night when i was sick. my mum specially cooked porridge for me and even brought it up to her room where i was slping at. she made honey for me too! felt really pampered..which i haven't felt in so long already. even my youngest monkey sister who doesn't give a damn abt me asked me if im okay! haha felt soooo loved last night. even though i was sick like a cow.

oh yar not to forget my maid who thankfully didn't wake me up at 7 to prepare for work knowing tat im sick. feeling hungry now.

give thanks. to the lord for my wonderful family, my caring friends, my loving boyfriend, and also not to forget his son, Jesus, who was sent to us to take away all our sins by dying on the cross.

oooh great.

i just scared by dad's arowana in the tank by stretching my arms out in front of it. it literally jumped. haha.

i need a tan.

actually have one tonne of things to say abt my disgusting & totally irritating plus indecisive candidates, but shall save tat for tmr.

nite all.

working @ RE has enabled me to meet pple frm all walks of life. even though now the pple i meet are mostly O and A levels holders. but tats not the point.

i meet pple who has a degree, and yet are doing temp jobs for $5.50 per hr.

i meet pple who are only A level holders, and yet they tink tat $5.50 per hr is too measly a pay for them. so what if u're frm AJ and got quadruple As for ur A levels? i don't give a damn. just dun gimme shit & try to back out of jobs last minute.

i meet pple who are already in their mid-50s, and yet are looking for jobs to support themselves because they were retrenched and are single. as in, no husband, no wife, no children. just living by themselves, day in & day out.

which brings me to my nxt point. most of the pple i mentioned above who are 50 and jobless are all females. im gonna make sure i get married nxt time. i dun want to slog my arse off for a stupid company just to get retrenched 30 yrs later due to 'downsizing'. and the worst thing, not having a family to go home to.

so girls out there, if u're thinking of staying single, tink again.

monday blues become even worst when ur loved one is going into the army. AGAIN.

wish i could burn tekong down.

next time when im old & 50, im gonna be SO wrinkled up.
like a dried prune.
know why?
cos whenever u smile or do any facial expression, ur muscles pull & let go until one day, they're so tired tat they just dun pull or let go anymore. and therefore wrinkles and sagging of skin occur.

lately, my sweetie has been doing so many things to make me smile. okay so its actually not tat many but its sufficient for me. eg. learning the enrique iglesias song and playing it on the guitar for me!! *grins*

haha tats why im so gonna be full of wrinkles nxt time cos i just can't help laughing whenever he's around.
love you darling! :)

just felt like it.

gd nite.