previous blogskin got screwed up, thus explaining the new one.
but really liked the previous one.. so once i get it fixed it'll be back. *grins*

can't find anything to describe the fear and anxiety i have inside.
my mind knows that school has started, meaning time for exams and assignments is here too.
but somehow, my body is just stuck in the holiday mood.
cannot bring myself to focus.
doing all sorts of unconstructive things.
when the facade is stripped away, what lies beneath is indeed very scary.

someone.. help.

ever wondered what kind of people reads your blog?
i have.

with search engines like google or yahoo, its just too easy to search anybody's blog with just a click of the mouse.

just have to key in words like "pretty gina" or "gina the great" and tada! my blog appears. haha ok ok just kidding. stop dirtying the floor with your puke.

what if people who hates me read my blog?
*gasps* they will know all about me. they will know who are all my friends. they will know where i usually hang out at and ambush there so they might be able to stare daggers at me. they will assasinate all my friends so that i end up as a miserable pathetic friendless twit with no friends and who goes around begging everyone to be my friend such that they think i am mad and throw me into the asylum.

that will be the end of me.

but nahhh they wouldn't want that to happen cos if it does, this blog will not be updated and they cannot come online to view my blog and laugh at the silly things i say and do which gives them so much pleaure to think that they are somehow superior towards me.

i hope they die laughing.

on the other hand, if you who are reading this blog now am so crazily and totally in love with me, and worship every single thing i say and do, i say do leave a tag and let me know.

but i seriously doubt anyone will.

prove me wrong!!

some snapshots of life in nus..


me piggybacking cutie nic!


arts bash. denise mish me bianca outside newsroom bar


me and mish traumatised by the thornful trees


bumming ard in the comp lab


slacking on kat's comfy bed

for more pictures click here.

the amazing race ended with a really amazing finale last night.


the finale of the amazing race

with colin and christie so strong a team, who would have guessed that fate was on chip and kim's side when they found out that colin and christie's flight was delayed. that was the turning point for them. if not i can bet on my butt that chip and kim wouldn't win. i think. well.

stupid school. mid-sem break from mon-thurs and school resumes on friday. what kind of a mid-sem break is that. and i have to go down to school today from 5-7 for a make-up lit lecture. what kind of bloody lousy timing is that.

urgh.

having my mid sem break and slacking my life away.

i think i'll be in nus for 5 years.

i'm now the weight of a baby hippo. *gasps*

i think 80% of my weight are body fats.

i wanna sleep.

bye.

the terminal rocks. really.
u guys should go catch it.
tom hanks is unbelievable. he's GOOD.



so anyway, today's service was wonderful.
just kneeling down and worshipping Him.
one song really touched my heart.

"in the midst of the storm
through the wind and the rain
you'll still be faithful
you'll still be faithful

when the stars refuse to shine
and time is no more
you'll still be faithful
you'll still be faithul Lord"

the road ahead of me is packed full with pebbles and rocks and mountains and what not. but i know that as long as i believe, as long as i ask, He will help me to remove the barriers in this journey one by one with His own hands, because He is faithful. for who made the roses bloom prettily every spring without fail, who moists the earth with rain, and cools us with the wind?

it is only Him, our faithful God.

its 2.23am in the morning and here i am, blogging in dorothy's hall, in an attempt to procrastinate the completion of my philosophy paper, which is due tomorrow and i'm not even halfway through, and which accounts for 25% of my final grade.

i am so gonna get a BIG FAT F.

::its been 3 years::

suddenly, an incident that happened a few weeks back struck me as highly insulting to me. i met this particular friend by chance. and so, trying to make small talk with each other. she was offered a place in nus, but rejected it to go to sim. when i told her that i was offered the same course as her and i got in, she seems to be mildly surprised. like 'you managed to get in?'

being the nice person i am, i just brushed that comment off with a laugh and agreed that i was very lucky to get in. come to think of it, i should have just asked straight to her face what did she mean by that comment.

well, whatever. you can condescend me for all i care. i have much better things to do anyway. like, catch up on my sleep.

night all.

before that, some photos from mish's birthday celebration with sharleah..


celebration for mish's 19th birthday at marche


me and nic! she's sooo cute.


mish the bday girl


sharleah grp pic

for more insane pictures click this.

school sucks.
i know, i should probably try to make the best out of it and enjoy myself since i'm already here.
but it doesn't change the fact that school still sucks.

can i be transferred??

school is starting to take its toll on me. assignments, projects, presentations.. they seem to be virtually endless. seriously felt like dropping out of nus. but i can't. cos i know if i do, many people will be after my blood. namely, my family and friends. and i stupidly went to run for the sociology society main comm. and got myself as assistant organising director. more workload being forseen for the future. i think i am just gonna DIE in school. argh shall stop talking about such a depressing subject.

outside of school, its been fun ie. brothers'/sisters' night, odac gathering even though it was just a really small scale one, family bonding? heh.

had our annual brothers'/sisters' night on saturday. its a night when the brothers will do something for the sisters and vice versa. the brothers did a really good job for the sisters. 2 thumbs up! plus both feet too. they set up a really nice dining atmosphere in the clubhouse, served us self-cooked food in ritz-carlton style service (or so they say), and made this bracelet thingy painstakingly. was really touched. thanks so much brothers! love you guys loads. even though i don't always show it and seem to do just the opposite. heh.

the girls were amazing too. we rock! we put up a dance and stomp performance which got everybody rocking towards the end. man, was the atmosphere high. dancing is rather fun! thinking of joining dance next year but i'll probably fail the auditions. lol.

went to ponggol nasi lemak to meet some of the odac people after that. xuanyu!! is still super ugly as ever. ns guys junming zhiyong jiajing junjie still look the same - half-dead from ns. nigel and shuming, all the best for your A's! they will be over before you know it. von fel and yam, its seriously time for a girls session. stop hibernating in ntu and come out to civilisation to meet me!

one last thing: icutmyhairandihateit.cosnowihavebangs!argh.

some nolstagic pictures from ndp2004..


huimei me huiyu before ndp


huimei me kang at national stadium


me and ptl dearest!


the amazing fireworks


mingling around with the performers on the parade square after the whole show. sure am gonna miss the stadium when they tear it down..

for more photos with pretty performers pretty fireworks and of course pretty girls please click here.

2 reasons to love wednesdays: charmed and the amazing race!

i tell you. no matter what, no matter where, no matter how, i will rush home to watch charmed from next week onwards. and amazing race too. they're just too good to be missed.

i love charmed!!


the 3 halliwell sisters - piper, phoebe and paige


leo is cute!


wyatt is cuter!!


piper and paige


wyatt and leo


phoebe


pretty hot babes


the triqueta

you guys should really catch the show. every wednesday night 8.30pm channel 5! for those who have already watched it on axn, no harm watching again!! aaahhh even to just drool at phoebe's superb bod, admire paige's beauty, experience piper's kick-ass attitude and not forgetting going ahh-goo-goo-goo at wyatt the cutie-pie baby!

after that, can go for a break before switching on the tv for amazing race!

kami/karla & brandon


colin & christie


lance/marshall

besides watching all those teams being bitchy to one another, trying to sabotage one another, bonding together as a couple, you also get to broaden your views from all the different parts of the world. now that's what i call educational tv.

seriously, channel 5 should pay me for promoting their programmes.