at the point of breaking down.

test today was horrible. i have never stoned so much in my entire life. the questions look like the tutorial ones, but yet the answers just can't come to mind. throughout the 1 hour and 45 minutes, all i could think of was how i am going to pass this module. can i just emphasize again, this is the worst paper in my entire life.

if you don't let me in, how am i supposed to do it?

fucking worst day ever.

this is for chen weiqiang:

i'm sorry. here's a picture of my favourite hamster, aka "The Great Escapist" blur cock.
c.o.t always okay.

i'm tired, just so tired.
thoroughly and utterly jaded.



Little Superhero Girl
Corrine May

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore
And imagine how I'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
Where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
Where nobody can recognize
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na...
Gonna be a Superhero
Na-na-na-na...

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

For all the things that I was unable to express to you, I seem to find it easier through writing. Thank you for everything. The good times, the bad times, the fun times. Times when we were both happy, times when we were both sad. Times for when I angered you, times for when you made me smile and laugh. Saying thank you is never enough, neither is it a form of appreciation good enough for a dear friend like you. Sorry for the hurt I caused you. It's been a fun roller coaster ride while it lasted. And.. the special friendship we shared will always reside in my heart. Stay happy okay? :)

once again, refer to the post dated 10 sep.

it just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
everything everything will be just fine, everything everything will be alright alright.

this might have came abit too late but what the heck. i was never really one to follow the trend on time too anyway.
A literary meme inspired by MercerMachine and his post that started it all.


I am the girl who was born to her unfortunate parents in a hospital in Thomson around 20 years ago. I am the girl who has a name that alliterates, and the girl whose Chinese name sounds like a crude vulgarity in dialect.

I was the girl who stayed home every time you said I couldn't go out, while all my friends were out having fun. I am now the girl who sneaks out at midnight for suppers and shopping trips at Mustafa Centre while you both were asleep in bed. Or so I thought. I'm the girl whom you called at 2am and found out that I wasn't home like I was supposed to be.

I am the daughter who feels suffocated in her own home. I am the girl who so desperately wants to do well to prove you wrong, but yet failing desperately.

I am the girl who had to pretend that she was all bubbly and hyper at 9 in the morning when she only slept for half an hour the night before. I'm the girl who did not regret acting all bubbly and hyper when I saw your enthusiastic participation and cheering. I am the girl who, from the bottom of her heart, was very proud of you when she saw your performance. And even prouder when you guys won the best freshie performance.

I'm the girl that met you by chance, and I became the girl you hit off with so well that people started confusing up our names by mistake cause we're always together. I am the girl whose friend hated being called my name. I'm the girl who is happy for her friend because there is someone who likes her so very much.

I am the girl who enjoys poking and whacking my friends' boobs, just to trigger off their screams and laughter. I am the girl, whom everyone thinks is so cheerful and sunny, but hiding sorrow and sadness deep within her. I used to be the girl who would start calling up everyone on her hp phonebook list to talk to whenever she faces problems or dilemmas. I'm the girl who no longer believes in pouring out her sorrows to her friends.

I am the student who cried halfway through a lecture in school because her relationship was on the rocks. I'm the girl who startled all my friends sitting beside me during the lecture when I cried. I am the girl who cried every morning when she woke up and every night before she went to bed when the love of her life left her.

I am the girl who strengthened over a broken relationship with her friends beside her.

I am the girl who fell in love with your smile. I am the girl who still falls in love with your smile every time I see it.

I am the girl whose new spanking Sony Vaio laptop you've stolen. And I'm the girl loved enough by her family to get a new laptop.

I am the girl who loves singing, and has a secret desire to make singing her career. I am the girl who knows that reality is harsh and people have got to learn to be more practical. I am the girl who majors in Economics, and I'm the girl who wants to change her major but has no guts to.

I am the girl whose friends are so barbaric, that they have to shout every time they see each other, including me. I am the girl who loves all her friends. Yes, you, you, and you.

I am the girl who is terrified of cats due to a traumatic childhood experience. I'm the girl who loves dogs. And I'm the girl whose dad owns a pub that has the ugliest signboard ever.

I'm the girl who has found two very good male friends, and being spoilt by them too much. I am the girl who is secretly falling in love with you. I'm also the girl who hid behind a car from a bangla when she was jogging round her estate at 1 in the morning.

I am the girl who has been riding on her neighhour's wireless network. I'm also a photo whore.

I am the girl whose face masks what she feels, and I'm the girl who is very real with the people who know her well.



Yeah, I'm that girl. Who are you?

for the nth time in the past weeks, i am in a foul mood.

family issues, friendship disputes, stress from school..

i really don't want to be whining about unhappy stuff on this blog, but i guess it is a form of outlet for me to rant my frustrations where no one can hear.

i am trying to study. really. but i lack the passion and the motivation. i will not say that i study with all the free time i have. but i did. at least i did study, be it for just one day or what. i did.

who are you to tell me that...


have decided to stop blogging.

i have had enough of people telling me that i am fat.

shut the fuck up.

The Middle
Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in.
Live right now and
just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can.
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright,alright.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright.

it's just me and my moody wednesdays.

sitting in back, peering into it
i fear i may be, starting to feel things that i want to run away from
falling deeper, without a support
i wonder what will happen next.

sometimes, looking at the tags left behind by friends, i really wonder what have i done to deserve them. touched deep deep. thanks y'all.

I WILL MAKE IT.